My Healing
During this time of extreme illness, I have been able to heal in ways only Jesus could perform-both spiritually and physically. My journey has been slow, baby steps, but each step drew me closer to Jesus. By resting, being still, closed off from the world, I had more room to be filled with Jesus. Because I have been unable to move around much without becoming overwhelmingly exhausted, I have not done the things I am normally used to doing, such as getting dressed, doing my hair, cooking food, or helping clean up the house. It caused me a lot of stress in the beginning and even still it troubles me sometimes. It has been a blessing though, because I learned how to totally surrender everything to Jesus.
I could barely move, I was very weak, I sat quietly in my chair and He taught me how to surrender all to Him. He was always trying to get my attention, many times He would show me the way. I said yes, but still found it hard to listen because I did not understand. I had to accept that He chose to move in my life in this way. As I sat there He taught me many things about Himself and about myself.
One of the main things is He is totally in control; to just rest in Him, and watch Him work. He is in control of everything. Through my baby steps of healing, I saw His hand move over and over, with doctors, family, and how my body responded to His healing touch. A great peace came along with this. Every part of my body that Satan attacked, Jesus helped me with. I trusted Him with the problem, He took care of it. My job was to relax, let go, and let Him take over. I won every obstacle that came to attack my body. My granddaughter who has been taking care of me all this time kept telling me just rest, save my energy. My daughter would come and sit with me and it brought great joy. She would help me and tell me not to get up. It was hard for me though because I have always been a doer. I have always been the one taking care of my family, so it was hard to learn that lesson of being taken care of. I was a single parent who had to raise four children on my own, that has always been my mindset. There was never any time for me, never time to process the things Jesus brought me through and the impact they have had on my body after all these years. Slowly, I am getting better, gaining my strength back. I am still on the road to recovery and still learning to listen and obey the still small voice of Jesus’s love.
He has put the stars in the Heavens, what am I worried about? Praise the Lord Jesus Christ.
Psalm 103:2-3
2-Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
3-Who forgiveth all thine iniquities: who healed all thy diseases.
Exodus 15:26
[Thus saith the Lord]…For I am the Lord that healeth thee.
2 Chronicles 7:14
[Thus saith the Lord] If My people, which are called by My name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from Heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.