Through It All
I was a newly saved christian when my husband passed away at the age of twenty nine. I was five months pregnant and had 2 other young children already. I was in a state of shock over his death. I would not go back into my house where he died. I went to live with my parents for six months.
Please be patient with me because this is so hard for me to put to words.
My parents were so worried about me and my children. Every night my dad and I would read from the Bible. As he was reading, the Lord spoke to my heart, “Just don’t read the Bible, live it.” I was not sure what that meant at the time, but I know the Word came so alive to me in that moment. It has always stayed deep in my heart, as if Jesus planted it there. I continued going to church and reading the Bible, listening closely to what was being said through His words. As I grew in His word He became very real and alive in my own life. I saw miracles in my own life and others around me. I just stood with awe and wonder, then went to the Word of God to make sure it all lined up. Jesus took me deeper and deeper into the Word, and I understood it more clearly along the way. I grew hungry to learn more each day, I now had a relationship with the Lord. As time went on it grew and I longed to get even closer to Him.
Sometimes in life we have to go down before we can come up. It is said that a seed must go into the ground and die so that it can come up as beautiful flower. That is what happened to me, and I yielded to my Heavenly Father’s will. Yes, shedding the old life was hard at times, but looking back [hindsight] I was able to understand some of the questions I asked Him.
Even today, I still have questions, but when I rest in Him, I hear that still small voice, “Trust in Me.” At times, He had to take me by my hand because I was afraid to go forward in life, listening to too many voices instead of Jesus’s. Until this day, I never regretted His teaching me. I can not say I understood everything that happened in life, but I know who held my hand along the way, and when I get to heaven He will tell me all things.
To understand more about me and my walk with Him, I wrote a book titled, “He Did It For Me,” found at the My Book tab above if you are interested. It was a hard book for me to write; I cried a lot, but it was all for Jesus’s glory: for He took me through it all! He can also do it for you.
Matthew 11:28-30
28- [Jesus said] “Come unto Me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.
29-Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30-For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.”
Psalm 23:1-4
1-The Lord is my shipherd; I shall not want.
2-He maketh me lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters.
3-He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
4-Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for Thou art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me.
Isaiah 41:10
[Thus saith the Lord] Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
John 16:33
[Jesus said] “These things I have spoken unto you, that in Me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
And He [God] said unto me, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
Romans 8:37
Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.